Honesty is such a lonely word…
– Billy Joel
Discipline.
Over the last several months, I’ve let myself go physically, mentally and spiritually.
Physically: I haven’t been running. I haven’t been to the gym.
I have been walking almost everywhere I go, close to a mile to a part-time job I’m working, a half-mile to a hospice where I volunteer.
But running a marathon on June 6 for which I haven’t signed up, I’m nowhere close. My goal of running a marathon by the time I’m 40 on June 9.
Mentally: I’ve lost interest in reading over the past few weeks. I continue to procrastinate on…
life, from writing stories to sending out resumes to just have the discipline to get up mornings to run.
Spiritually: over the past few weeks, I’ve fallen out of “doing” the Liturgy of the Hours, which I have been “doing” (herein lies part of the problem: “doing” them) on my way toward becoming a Benedictine oblate of Mount Saviour Monastery. If that is my goal, then I think I may already be in trouble.
In the past, I’ve made grand pronouncements at this point in a post.
No grand pronouncements.
Just a little honesty. On whom I am depending for it?
Hey, it’s ok, man. Don’t be too tough on yourself. Just do one “right” thing at a time. You will find yourself where you need to be.
Eve
Eve, a belated thanks. I’m working on it.
Hope to see you back soon.
I hope that by expressing the truth, some healing and peace emerges.
I’d been wondering where you were lately. I’m sorry you’ve hit a wall, but I think it happens to most of us at some point – and you’ve been taking on a lot (even if you DID consolidate several of your blogs not too long ago).
Hope you find your way back soon.
I’m trying to get over the wall. Still working on that consolidation…right now, crossposting, but maybe by the end of the year